Thursday, April 17, 2014

Peas in a pod

What do you think, do they look like they are cut from the same mold?


and a bonus of Fisher just because:

I don't have a picture of Kev as baby, but for comparison and so you can see where they get their cuteness from, let's go wayyyy back to...

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

This space

I'm not sure what to do with this little corner of the internet.

I go back and forth between wanting to jump back into blogging and wanting to delete the whole thing.

I don't have much time these days. 

Well, I suppose this is probably a "cop out".  I've never really had much time and I've made it work.  I guess the truth is I'm less inclined to make it work these days.  The time when I could blog is time I'd rather spend in other ways in this season of life.

Part of my struggle is in deciding what to write.  That's always been a bit of a problem, but as my children grow it seems more of an issue.  I am more and more becoming keenly aware that these stories aren't just mine.  In fact, I'm not sure they are mine at all much of the time.  I have long made a habit of asking permission before posting most things. For every post there are many that go unwritten because they are too personal, too difficult or a dozen other reasons.  Even when permission is granted, I wonder will they change their mind later at 20,30, 55?



I'm not sure what will become of this space. 

Maybe I'll spruce it up with some new writing. 

Maybe I'll take it down. 

Maybe I'll leave it like an abandoned old house.

For now, I'll just stick to saying life is busy and I don't have much time.

Things have been wonderful and hard and fun and boring and fabulous and awful and busy and full and a million other things...that's always been the case and likely always will. 

Really, it could all be summed up in one little word.


The good, the bad, the's all a gift.

I may not be writing about it much these days, but I am trying my best to soak it all up...especially moments like these:

Friday, October 11, 2013

Just because...

Rocklin loves to take pictures and while he prefers to do nature photography, he can't resist taking pics of his adorable baby brother.  I was looking through recent photos and here are a few that he's captured...

Monday, September 23, 2013

And then there were six...

 Alternatively titled, the not so little Rebels meet their new baby brother.

These pictures aren't much as far as photography goes.

We were too busy living the moment to worry about capturing it for later.

Even still, with the blurriness and other imperfections, I think the joy is pretty evident and in my not so humble opinion these pictures are priceless.

First glimpse...


Finally in their arms...

Parker is SO excited about being a big brother!

This is one of my favorite pictures ever!  I LOVE how intently they are looking at each heart melts every single time I look at this one. 

Thursday, September 19, 2013

He's here!

It's been way too long since I've posted, I have birthday posts and summer fun posts and posts on a dozen other topics all swirling in my head and my draft box, but alas there isn't enough time or energy in the day right now to get caught up.

I couldn't get posting to work from my phone, but now that I'm on the computer for the first time in over a week, it's time to properly introduce the blog world to our new little guy.

Fisher Simon (Fin)

We are all in love and so, so, so thankful to be given this precious gift!

Tuesday, May 21, 2013


I just sat and looked through my blog archives, amazing how fast the years go by even as the days sometimes seem so long...

Wasn't it a month ago when I was posting about your first birthday?

It couldn't have been five years ago that your favorite gift was a new toothbrush.

Your third birthday came and went so lightening fast, I didn't have a chance to post more than a couple of pictures.

Surely it was just last week that we spent time giggling and snuggling before you fell asleep and grew overnight as you became four.

Then there was turning five and falling in love with Playdough.

A few days ago it seems, we were so excited about all the adventures that would come with being six.

Now, one short blink and here we are at the door of SEVEN!

Happy, happy, happy 7th Birthday, Punky Doo! 

Your joy is contagious, 
your tender heart humbles me, 
your giggles reach down to the depths of my soul, 
your energy exhausts me 
and I am forever grateful that I get to be your mom. 

I hope this year of seven is all you dream it will be and so very much more!

Think he likes it?

Aaron says "No kissies."  Guess what Parker was determined to do?

Monday, April 29, 2013

It's a...

We had an ultrasound this morning and have news to share...

***"spoilers" below, so watch the video first!***

Aaron did not want to be in the video and we had technical difficulties recording Parker, so that's why this starts with Jerald opening his gift.

We stopped at the store on the way home and picked up six for each of them to open and the final one for Grampie (my dad) who kindly hung out at our house while we were gone.  The kids gifts were all gender neutral to keep the suspense going just a few more minutes.  Then we let Grampie open the final gift to show the baby's gender.

It was bittersweet for Mag, she so desires a sister amongst all of these brothers.  Yet, she is thrilled to be getting another sibling even if it's a brother.  Many people think she is "stuck" with all these boys, but the truth is she is blessed by them and she is a huge blessing to them as well.

Jerald was so sure it was a girl, adjusting his expectations to reality has been a bit difficult for him, but I have little doubt that he'll be knitting sweet baby boy things in no time.

As for the others, well Rock and Aaron are just thrilled about a baby and the video should leave no doubt what Parker thinks. ;-)

We are thrilled and blessed by all of our children no matter their gender and this time is no different.

It is an exhausting, exhilarating, joyful and sometimes difficult journey to be a parent, but what a blessing and privilege it is amongst the responsibility!

We cannot wait to welcome our sixth child, fifth son into the world in September!

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Melting Chocolate not Melting Down

Kev was running out for a late night errand.

No, not to satisfy a pregnancy craving, instead to pick up a medication.

Still awake and always eager to spend time with his Dad, Jay asked to tag along.

Just as they left, I asked them to also grab a Mounds bar.

All was great until they discovered that particular store did not have any Mounds bars.

As is common for many on the autism spectrum, Jay does not handle this sort of "change of plans" well. 

He insisted that Dad drive to a different store.

It was well past Dad's bed time, patience was running thin and going all over to get something that was not a necessity was just not going to fly with him.

Kev's solution was simple and perfectly reasonable, grab a couple of other types of candy bars and call it good.

Simple and reasonable doesn't matter for a kiddo that has a specific request in his mind.  To him, anything less than what I asked for was not acceptable.  There is no room for an alternative.  I didn't say "grab a candy bar too, please."  I asked for a Mounds bar.  Nothing else was gonna do.

Jay started to become visibly and vocally upset. 

It was late, he was tired, things were not going the way he expected, Dad was also frustrated...

This had the potential to escalate into a really bad situation quickly.

Then something happened.


Not a baby step either.  A giant leap.

Jay was still upset, but he was able to stop in the moment and problem solve.

"I'll make my own Mounds bar."

and so he did.

Initially, he thought he'd just melt a peppermint patty in the microwave and add coconut to it.

On second thought, he decided he should go to the internet and find a recipe.

At nearly 1am, he tiptoed into my bedroom, jolted me awake (by asking if I was awake) and held out his surprise for me to try.

I'm not sure it tasted much like a real Mounds bar.

The progress behind it though?

Yeah, that makes it taste a MILLION times better than the best chocolate on earth.

I'm sure we haven't seen the last of the meltdowns, the inability to switch gears and go with plan B or a number of other struggles.

I'm equally sure that amongst those moments, we will continue to see times of progress and nothing could be sweeter!